56hrs

Last night was rough. I was frazzled and tired, I REALLY wanted a drink. Exp. when my husband drank a couple of beers. I found myself rationalizing "why am I doing this?", "I should be able to have a few beers after a long day like this" ect ect ect. But I reminded myself that I CAN'T just have a few beers ..over and over again. Before I know it I will be stopping by the liquor store to pick up and hide a bottle of vodka. Why do I do that? Well my husband keeps track of the alcohol in the house. He knows I have a problem controlling my drinking.  He has asked me to stop before. That is when I went 23 days sober; my longest stretch so far. I got drunk and feel down a little staircase in our house and sprained my ankle really bad. There have been other instances of downright drunkenness to the point I didn't know what I was doing...and he was not a fan :X He worries about me, he loves me. I know this, but when I'm actively drinking, I resent it.